F&*%ing Ridiculous!

So, I'm not sure if it's just my hormones, but people are getting on my damn NERVES this week. No one does what they are asked to when I ask them and then when they want someone to do something, here they come to me. Well bump that. Unless you are Honey, family, or a select few of my friends...DON'T ASK ME FOR S%#T. So for this week (which is sad since it's only freakin' Tuesday), these are the things that have irritated the hell out of me:

1. Passive aggressive notes-No..not the website. Ones that are either attached to my window or my car. WTF? How difficult would it be to knock on the door or come get me since I was sitting outside about 6 feet from the damn car.

2. Ungrateful people-If you aren't going to appreciate what I did, then don't ask me for a damn thing ever again. I work hard and I deserve some peace of mind and a break. Don't come to me when I am having said break and ask me to do shit for you.

3. People that don't know what the hell the word BEDREST means-I was put on complete bedrest by the best OB in the region. Are you seriously asking me to put my child's life in jeopardy to do some household crap for you? B*TCH, ARE YOU SERIOUS?!? Your ass will NEVER be as important as this baby so f*ck off.

4. Belly-touchers- I don't know you, get the hell out of my personal space. I'm showing, but not THAT much that I've lost the feeling in my stomach area. Also, she's not even big enough for you to feel on the outside! I'm not a touchy-feely person, ask my significant other or my family members. If I don't know your ass, DON'T TOUCH ME!

5. People that tell me to smile or ask why I'm not talking about the baby 24/7- Seriously? Are you seriously telling me how to feel about my pregnancy? You are on some serious drugs if you honestly think that I give a flying F$%K whether you want to see my happy face. Go fall down some stairs and break a limb...I'll probably smile then.

6. People that try to talk politics just because I have an Obama magnet on my car- Don't come up to me in a parking lot and expect me to debate politics with your dumb ass. I'm more likely to cut you because I think you're going to try to assault me. I'm sorry but, he's our president...he won...GET OVER IT ALREADY! Don't come up to me trying to bad-mouth him when I'm clearly a supporter.

And I Stand Here Amazed...

I know it's been a while, but I've been working on some things and got side tracked. I have still been working on my Master's degree and that's been going very well. Josh and I have a new addition on the way and we are ECSTATIC! After the loss last year, I was ready to go for it again. I am currently 21 weeks along and feeling amazing. We moved up and got a larger home which is a 4 bedroom and quite nice.

I am in such a state of elation about this baby...there isn't a way to compare it to anything else I've ever experienced. It's a beautiful thing to realize that you created another human being out of pure love and that this human being will have thoughts, tenacity, and personality all their own. The excitement is quite overwhelming.

Our families are incredibly excited, although obviously concerned. They are all praying for the best for our little family. It's incredible that one's life can change so much in a few short months.

Dear Life

There have been so many changes to my life in the past 2 weeks...it's simply unbelievable. I stayed true to my word and began 2009 with a BANG! I'm off to a great start :)

I have moved out of Michigan, I'm now in Indiana.

Renting a 2 bedroom home.

Classes are going incredibly well.

I'm in an amazing and healthy relationship.

Started my dredlocs

Started my own YouTube channel (vids are to the right)

I've been cooking SO much. It's been crazy.

This is the first time in my life that I've actually enjoyed every single day. My pets are great, that's my puppy, Vashti at the top. She's adjusted very well. I'm just enjoying the whole picking up and moving to a whole new state. It's an amazing feeling of freedom that's hard to explain...knowing that I'm completely independent. Life is GREAT.

Fired Up Friday!

LET'S GO STEELERS!!!!

and not just because I want to make little brown babies with Troy Polamalu :D

R.I.P.

We have lost so many people this year...so many people that you would never have even though weren't well. The latest in this line of people is Eartha Kitt. This woman was one of the most beautiful and influential actresses in Hollywood for the past 60 years. She had one of the most easily recognized voices in the world.

From Associated Press:

NEW YORK (AP) — Eartha Kitt, a sultry singer, dancer and actress who rose from South Carolina cotton fields to become an international symbol of elegance and sensuality, has died, a family spokesman said. She was 81.

Andrew Freedman said Kitt, who was recently treated at Columbia Presbyterian Hospital, died Thursday in Connecticut of colon cancer.

Kitt, a self-proclaimed "sex kitten" famous for her catlike purr, was one of America's most versatile performers, winning two Emmys and nabbing a third nomination. She also was nominated for several Tonys and two Grammys.

Her career spanned six decades, from her start as a dancer with the famed Katherine Dunham troupe to cabarets and acting and singing on stage, in movies and on television. She persevered through an unhappy childhood as a mixed-race daughter of the South and made headlines in the 1960s for denouncing the Vietnam War during a visit to the White House.

Through the years, Kitt remained a picture of vitality and attracted fans less than half her age even as she neared 80.

Eartha Kitt was and always will be one of my favorite actresses. A couple clips of my favorite roles of hers are below. Enjoy:

Ooh Love

His hand over mine across a table
Staying up all night just waiting for him to come home
The thrill I get deep inside when he comes through the door after work
His palms on my stomach as we lie together
This is love

Him being unafraid to tell me he needs me
The way I tingle when he calls me his wife
Beginning our family together
Both of us lying in bed just talking and laughing
Knowing he will be there through thick and thin
“Till the wheels fall off, baby”
Yes, honey...till the wheels fall off
That is love

For the first time in life…
I mean as much to someone as they mean to me
I have a true understanding
I know I am loved
I am someone’s heart and soul; and they are mine
"Girl, I love you from the longest hair on your head to your pointy little toe"
I giggled

For the first time in life…
I have real love

Why Nappy?

I was at a friend's house when his younger sister asked me why I went natural. I have never had anyone ask me why before, because I figured they knew once they had a few conversations with me. Anyway, the short version of what I said was: "I don't feel that need to hold my hair to the standards of European beauty. My hair is kinky, coily, nappy, and absolutely gorgeous." She somehow found this offensive, replying with: "I hate that word, nappy. No one's hair is nappy." I responded that, "MY hair is nappy and I take pride in it because I do not fear my heritage like some black women". She got pissed off and threw her plate down and walked out.

I have since earned the moniker of, That Militant Bitch that *insert friend's name* Hangs Out With. YES! *smirk*

After this exchange, I kind of sat back and was thinking back to when I first decided to go natural. During the beginning of my freshman year of college, I played with the idea of going natural for a while. I did my research and read books about black hair textures while still relaxing just the front of my hair because I loved my swoopy bang thing. Finally, I made the decision that I was going to do it. I actually was going to stop relaxing my hair and let it grow naturally!

I transitioned for a year with various updos, braids, and twists in order to allow my hair to grow a fully natural 4 inches. Conveniently, around the time my hair reached this length was when a noose was found on my campus and we had a TON of pride rallies. Shortly before the first rally/meeting, I finally decided to cut the relaxed ends off and allow my fro to fly. When I finished doing my hair and was walking out the door, I had never felt more free and happy. I had never felt more BEAUTIFUL.

I was going through some struggles with my identity for a while there and my decision to go natural really reinforced who I am and where I come from. From then on, I've been on a journey to know my roots. I refuse to allow myself to be one of those people who doesn't care to know their background. I put the money together to get my DNA tested in order to find out what area of Africa my family comes from. The results came back that the majority of my DNA is based in West Africa and Central America (obviously). Apparently, my father's side is from Ghana which makes me unspeakably happy because the tattoo I was drawing used a lot of their symbols.

My hair is a big source of pride for me because it represents my development and cultivation of self. It was the first step of my journey to knowing myself and being able to become the woman I am supposed to be. I have never put as much work into anything as I do my hair on a weekly basis and that is pretty interesting to me. Overall, I'm nappy because it makes me happy, baby!

History...

I am amazed that this happened in my lifetime. We have a BLACK PRESIDENT! I am in tears as I type this, I've never been so proud to be a black woman in my entire life. I've never been so proud to be an AMERICAN! I cannot believe that we have come this far as a country, as a people. I really don't think I've cried this hard in years. I'm so proud of my generation! IT WAS US, GUYS...THEY COULD NOT TAKE OUR VOICE.