It's Been a While...

Ok...so it hasn't been THAT long, but it feels like it has. So here are the updates from my life: 1) I finished Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows....GO GET IT, NOW! It was the greatest book I've ever read. I was almost completely correct with my guesses. 2) My paternal grandmother died last Friday and the funeral on Saturday was really hard for me to handle. She was a wonderful woman and we were very close. On the bright side, I got back in touch with some estranged members of my family. 3) My hair is transitioning to natural very well. It looks great, don't you think? 4) I got all my stuff for my bedroom, it's going to be the HOTNESS!

I'm am so glad that I'm almost done with this internship. I'm SO ready to go back to school. Also, I'm adopting one of Megan's kittens next weekend. It was supposed to be this weekend, but the boys locked her out of the house.

The funeral was really hard on me, but I'm ok now. It was just hard for me to see her looking so thin and waxy. Also, when I touched her forehead she was ridiculously cold and that struck me hard. You always hear about how cold dead bodies are, but it's bad when you experience it yourself...

Moving On...

So, right now I'm trying to make my final decisions regarding graduate school. It's time. I'm a bit conflicted as there are a few options. I want to stay within the state of Michigan because I can't imagine leaving my family. As of right now, I'm trying to figure out which GRE I need to take: the general subject one or the Psychology specific one. Probably both. My choices at the moment are as follows:

1. Central Michigan University
2. Western Michigan University
3. Grand Valley State University
4. Michigan State University
5. University of Michigan

I'm leaning more towards CMU and GVSU out of the five options. Probably because CMU is where all my undergrad work has been done and that campus is like home to me. So needless to say, I will be applying to 5 grad schools. That makes me laugh because I only applied to 3 schools for my undergrad (CMU, GVSU, UofM). I guess I'm sort of nervous about this because it essentially dictates the rest of my life, yet excited for the same reason.

In other news, I'm going to work till 9 every night this week because I SERIOUSLY need the cash. So this should be a fun week. It's not that I hate the job, it's just boring and I have stopped paying as much attention to what I'm doing. At the moment I'm watching A Scanner Darkly...THIS IS A KICK ASS MOVIE! Just thought I'd let you all know in case you weren't aware. Also, there is a a Simpsons marathon from 8-10 tonight on Fox. I've never been this excited on a Sunday in my life. Also, I have some new *ahem* toys coming in the mail this week so this should be pretty exciting in itself.

Yeah...I'm a Nerd

Ok, so Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows came out at midnight last night. I can honestly say a good percentage of my friends were at the bookstore waiting for the release. I'm a huge nerd, so I pre-ordered mine about 3 months ago and got it for 12.99! Such a good deal! It should be at my place by Wednesday. I'm really excited about it and the suspense is KILLING me!!!! Brittany already got hers from the bookstore and Megan and I have been feeding our cravings with editorials from Mugglenet. I'm a huge nerd, so if I don't post for about a day after it gets here; you all already know why. I'm a Harry Potter fan, it's true. As grown as I am, I love those books. I'm a HUGE book nut, I'm always reading something. It will be great to have something new that I actually love to read. So the plan is that the day HP7 gets here, I'm going to spend that weekend in the bed reading it. Well, I'm going to finish this work and then head home for the night.

*Insert Charlie Brown's Yell of Frustration Here*

Sorry I haven't posted in a few days, this week has been hectic to say the VERY least. This week started ok, just me being exhausted as normal. Then, I get overloaded with all this psychological crap. I'm worried about school, my family, my future, etc. Although, I did get some good news on Tuesday: I will probably be done with my undergraduate studies by December of 2008. So I will be done a year early. WOOHOO! I'm planning on beginning grad school immediately afterwards.

Things are going fine outside my mind, but inside it's a battlefield. I'm trying to increase my speed/efficiency processing claims at work and it's very difficult. I love my job, but I think it's only because of the people I work with. The rest of the Fab Five and I are taking a beach trip in 2 weeks. We're going to drive up north to the beach with our respective significant others/close friends and have a HUGE ass party. It's going to be a lot of fun, especially since I haven't seen Rob in like 3 months and I'm dying!

So, Crys had her surgery and she is now spayed. She's so out of it right now...she's just high and tired and I can tell she's in a lot of pain. Where her parts were, you can see that she's kind of sunken in there. I went on my lunch break and bought her some things from Petco to make her feel better. She got her favorite tuna and turkey dinner, which stinks to high heaven and I hate it, but it will make her feel better. I also got her a new cat perch so she can see out of the windows.

I'm getting my car repainted tomorrow. That metallic black is going to be sooooo pretty, I'm also getting the bumper cover fixed which will be great. My fam has been getting on my nerves just because I'm home for the first time in 2 years and I'm used to being entirely self reliant. So to have to depend on someone else to look out for me again is just difficult. I'm just glad tomorrow's Friday and I can relax for a while. Also, apparently my blog isn't for kids. Prior to this it had an NC-17 rating. Now it's down to R for the words: dick, fuck, and fuckity

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The Day's Musings

OK, so my gratuitous pic of the Pretty Kitty is done. I had to get one last one in. That car is phenomenal! I just need a lil transmission work done and it will be perfect. I'm loving it. Why is it that everyone I've been dealing with today have all been bastards? Not only am I ridiculously sleepy, everyone is a dick.

I got plates/insurance/title transferred today and went about 5 minutes over my lunch break. Thank God my boss was out b/c it was her birthday. Anyway, my friend is talking about coming into town for my birthday so he and I can have a Tortilla Flats night for my b-day next Thursday. It should be a lot of fun. Anyway, it's about time for bed...I'm off.

Pretty Kitty

Just LOOK at that beautiful Cougar!!!! Look at my new baby!!!!!! AAAAAH!!!! I'm so geeked. I got the guy to bring the price down to $1500. It's so pretty. The hood is missing it's clear coat, but I'm just going to get the car repainted anyway and then that's going to be the end of that. I haven't quite figured out what color yet. Also, I ordered a new license plate frame with my letters on it, a custom brake light cover, and custom door sills. I'm so excited. I'm going to find a Roush body kit for it too and some 16" rims are a definite possibility. I'm SHUTTING IT DOWN when classes start.

Me Me Time!

I was browsing some pages on Blog Explosion and came across Blog Blonde and she decided to address a me-me to everyone.

Each players starts with eight random facts or habits about themselves.

* People who get tagged must blog about their eight things and post these rules.

* At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.

* Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog

OK sooo here's my 8!

1) I am a gigantic anime nerd. I love going to cons, although I have yet to go in costume. Anime has been my life since I was about 10 and my god sister introduced me to it. I've never been the same.

2) I have fantastic, healthy friendships with all my exes. They have been there for me through some hard shit and do sometimes get a little jealous, but that's OK.

3) I have a really intense fear of clowns. Something about them just makes me really uneasy.

4) I have one of the worst tempers of anyone I know. It's just really easy to set me off.

5) I have a MAJOR crush on Barack Obama. His wife Michelle seems to be a phenomenal woman, but his intelligence and passion for justice is amazing.

6) My best friend is a Marine. So, needless to say...I have a slight bias when it comes to which branch of the military I support most.

7) I psychoanalyze everyone I know. It's a habit that developed at some point in high school and has just gotten worse since then.

8) I have a slight obsession with men from Detroit and the surrounding area. They all just have this inherent cockiness. Soooo hot.

I'm tagging everyone who is going to read this.

With family members like these, Who needs enemies?

Last night, I was playing with the cat and dog while my mother was watching Guiding Light on Ti-faux. She looks at me and says, you're built just like that girl now that you're fat. The girl she was talking about is Guiding Light's newest cast member Catherine VanZandt. Now, don't get me wrong...she's absolutely adorable and has some of the prettiest features I have ever seen. The thing is that I pride myself on having curves that are actually curves, THEY GO IN! I have a waist and thick hips; I am not as barrel shaped as Catherine is. So, I'm highly pissed. I'm getting tired of her telling me daily that I'm fat, I know that...GET THE F*** OVER IT! I'm a grown ass woman, I know what I'm doing and I'm the one that gets me dressed in the morning. I don't need you to tell me what I look like...ESPECIALLY when you compare me to someone with less shape. *sigh*...I just need to get over it and accept that she's going to be just like every other mother on the planet and complain 24/7.

Dicks and Assholes

It is amazing how the lack of interaction between two people can hurt worse than anything either could say. First I get cursed at and then I get ignored. At least I said thank you for doing me that little favor when I got out of the car, I guess. While I could have been a bitch and turned around screaming and cursing right back at him, I handled myself as a woman should. I said thank you, got out of the car, and went into my home.

Why are there more assholes in the world than nice guys??? I know there are a lot of guys who complain about how none of us want a nice guy. THAT'S NOT TRUE! Most of the decent women out there do. I could care less about how much money a man makes, what kind of car he drives, etc. All I want is to be treated with respect, courtesy, and love (where applicable). The most important thing to me in a relationship is mutual respect and to be treated as if I matter. Is that so hard to ask?!?

Why is it that a man can't come into some money/good fortune without becoming a total dick? I understand that some of you may not be used to being able to buy what you want, but that REALLY doesn't mean that you can just be an asshole to people who care about you. Weak men are the ones who change with acquiring new things. The men who didn't know who they were to begin with are those who change so easily because of money or luxury. It's hard to believe that someone can just BECOME shallow like that.

I'm thankful to have men like My Bear and my best friend in my life. They are the ones to whom I matter. They are the ones who will go to bat for me without a second thought. To them, doing a small favor for me wouldn't even matter.

Midnight Ramblings

Well, it's about 4:15 AM and I can't sleep. I can't stop thinking and worrying, as usual. There is so much that I want to do and that needs to be done this week. I've decided that I'm going to buy the Cougar on Thursday, but my dads are trying to stop me from doing it. My mom is in full support though. I'm a bit concerned though, because I couldn't put a down payment on it until CMU puts my refund check money in my account so there is no guarantee that it will be there on Thursday. The guy did say he would hold it for me if I called him tomorrow (not sure if I believe that). Anyway, he has to do the title/registration transfer and all that when I go in anyway so I'm going to take Thursday off in order to get there in time. Remember how I said that the Cavalier won't go above 30 MPH without a fight? We had to figure out a non-highway route to Detroit where the Cougar is. Normally, driving from Kalamazoo to Detroit is about 2 hours. The way we have to go is 3 HOURS AND 15 MINUTES! So yeah...this should be fun. *Sigh*

Have any of you heard about the "Master Cleanse" program? It's the program that Beyonce was on to lose the 22 lbs. for Dreamgirls and that Robin from Howard Stern's show lost about 77 lbs. on. I'm thinking about trying it out to just get rid of all these toxins faster and hopefully slim down more in the process (I've lost 4 inches so far). It's essentially lemon juice, cayenne pepper, water, and maple syrup for a minimum of 10 days. Most people I have talked to have lost around 8-17 pounds in the 10 days. They were telling me that the 3rd day will be the worst though, because my body will be getting rid of all the toxins completely. Everyone says that this is a good stepping stone for a lifestyle change. I'm going to get everything from the health food store up the street. Well, I'm going to try to get a few hours of sleep now.

A REALLY Lucky Day

So, I went into work at about 11 AM today after spending the night at Curt's and getting a little wrecked. So needless to say, I was a bit hungover. Anyway, my brother called my phone and told me that 2 cops came by to talk to me. I said ok and called the precinct. They said that they would have the officer that came by my house call me back. He did and THEY FOUND MY PURSE!

I got off work immediately and met the officer at my parent's house. My purse had EVERYTHING in it, I'm so happy! They didn't remove anything at all. Whoever took it just hid it in my kitty-corner neighbor's bushes. She started noticing that someone was in her yard late at night and then things started appearing. It started with various papers, then she saw my pink umbrella (ella ella), and finally saw the little shiny things glinting on the actual purse. She called the cops then. The officers think it was some kids who took it, because they just threw it out. I don't carry cash so I guess they didn't know what to do with the other stuff. Dumbasses.

Then, I was online looking for a new car and I found a 99 MERCURY COUGAR FOR $2500!!!! If you've known me at all, you know that that's my dream car that I've wanted since I was about 14 years old. I have never been so happy. Curt and I picked up and drove to Wayne to go look at it. IT'S PERFECT, minus some nicks here and there. So we're going to trade my Cavalier for the Cougar on Thursday and I'm paying the difference. Today was the most fantastic day ever!

Natural Start

In my post yesterday I let everyone know that I am transitioning to a natural hairstyle. My appointment for my twists is next Saturday and then I will be getting my sisterlocks on August 1st most likely. With this huge change I feel it is time for another fast. I have lost touch with God and my true self. In all mess and problems I've had, I've lost sight of God and the true path to happiness. It's time to wake myself up.

I'll be doing a juice fast for 1 week and then a water fast for another and alternating that for the next month or so. Since I am finding myself, I have to look my best. All the fatty/processed foods I have been eating have definitely taken their toll. I have gained some unpleasant bulges and my skin and hair are not looking too healthy. I used to do fasts to gain my insight when I was younger and I just need to revert back to that.

This past academic year had stressed me to the point of breaking. I was taking 21 credit hours(7 classes) and working 3 jobs. I was on tons of medications for anxiety and depression, but it seemed like they weren't doing any good. I have completely gone off the meds in order to get my body back into a natural rhythm. I'm detoxifying my body from all those medications and depression. This fall I will be working 2 jobs and taking 21 credit hours and I refuse to let myself fall like I did last year. This is a step in the way of health, no more killing myself with stress.

The Journey to Sistahood

My entire life, I've always had relaxers(chemical straightening systems) and over the past year or so I've gotten tired of it. I have always wanted a natural hair style and I am now realizing that I can finally do it! I have gone through a lot of deciding on what I want and how I want it when finally I just figured out that I need for my natural self to shine through.

With me being both Latina and black, my hair has an interesting texture. It has both the thick, coarseness of my African heritage and the curliness of my Latina heritage. So finally, I decided to go with Sister locks, which is a trademarked style. All of these photos that I have posted are from various sites that I used to do my research on. These are the photos that made me realize what I wanted. Of course, these photos are of women who have had them for a long time. Mine may look similar to that about 2 or 3 years from now. I am nevertheless really excited to begin this new chapter of my life. My consultation visit is on the 12th. WHOOP!

O CANADA!!!

HAPPY CANADA DAY, EVERYONE! Now, I'm not Canadian, but I do live in Michigan which is a hop, skip, and a jump away. Every year my friends and I go to Canada for our birthdays, but that was prior to us being able to drink legally in the US. THIS year, we're not going because I am the last of us to turn 21. My birthday is exactly 25 days away which is PHENOMENAL. I'm really excited about it, this year is going to be a great birthday.

My friends and I were talking about those of us with summer birthdays and how we could never bring in cupcakes for the class in elementary school. It used to make me sad when I was little, but now I just realized that I saved my parents a butt-load of money! Do you know how much 40 cupcakes costs? ***They should be thanking me, dammit.







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