The GREATEST Cover I've Ever Heard

This little girl on this Japanese Star Search-type of show does a cover of Jennifer Hudson's "You're Gonna Love Me"....and it's AMAZING!!!!!!!!

MeMe Tiiiiime!!!!!

Well, I am bored and I was tagged in a MeMe soooooo....here it is!

Top 5 Video Games

* Final Fantasy Series
* Hitman
* GTA Series
*Guitar Hero
* Metal Gear


Top 5 Movies

* Transformers
* Shawn of the Dead
* Jawbreaker
* Labyrinth
* Children of Men



Top 5 Dream Jobs

*Psychologist
* Sex Counselor
* Porn
* CEO of a restaurant franchise
* Stay at home mom


Top 5 Weapons to Use During Zombie Apocalypse

* Sawed off shot gun
*Machete
* Records
* Long-handle Axe
* Dynamite


Top 5 Phrases (real life phrases)

* BITCH!!!
* Oh, eff that
* GTS-Google that shit!
* Oh, hellllll no
* Agreed


Top 5 Bands/Singers

* Common
* India.Arie
* Gangstarr
* Gym Class Heroes
* Fall Out Boy


Top 5 Soundtracks

* Matrix
* GTA: San Andreas
* Silent Hill
* Resident Evil
* Hitman (AVE MARIA)


Top 5 TV Shows

* Anthony Bourdain's - No Reservations
* Simpsons
* Ninja Warrior
* Taboo
* Bleach


Top 5 Super Powers

* Invulnerability
* Pyrokinesis
* Telekinesis
* Ability to stop time
* Super Strength



Top 5 Women/Men over 50 (or 40) to Sleep With (young ones are easy)

* Pam Grier
* Sean Connery
* Samuel L. Jackson
* Don Johnson
*Ernie Hudson


Top 5 Movies I Liked As A Kid

* Labyrinth
* Willow
* The Little Mermaid
* Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles
* Mighty Morphin Power Rangers


Top 5 Favorite Sites (as of now)

* facebook
*otaku booty
* myspace
* college humor
* the bunny system

Fat Bitches and Skinny Hoes

It is no secret that I am not a small woman; true I'm not the biggest, but I am definitely not the smallest. I was having a conversation with my friend who is also a larger woman, and we were discussing when a man says "You are fine/pretty for a big girl" and expects us to be flattered by that statement. Ok, first of all...WHAT IN THE HELL?!? I'm fine/pretty for any size woman and what makes you think that you saying that to me would make me let you in my pants? Then the conversation turned to society and the advertisements that we are constantly exposed to, which is a whole other kettle of fish.

We all know that society tries to force their version of beauty into our minds, but they also are teaching us from an early age to not love ourselves. At my job, I work with a lot of young women; most of them are between 8 and 14 years old. You have no idea how many young girls that I've heard say that they feel like they need to lose weight or that they have fat thighs or something along those lines. Any time that I hear this, I'm the first to react and tell these girls that they are beautiful and that there is no standard of beauty that they need to meet. It is insane to me that parents aren't instilling a sense of self-worth and high self esteem in these girls. I've been a big girl for my entire life, that will not change as I have a large frame...the only difference is that during my childhood, my parents made SURE I knew that I was beautiful in every way and that there it is more important to be valued for one's mind than for your looks. Looks fade, the beauty of the mind is most important.

I'm just frustrated with the mental state of the next generation of young ladies. Their parents are not teaching them that there is no strict standard of beauty. A woman is beauty in herself...the fact that she is a woman. We underestimate our sex, and we don't see our own strength and intelligence. There are SO many people who feel as if it is fine to say rude/cruel things about each other's weight because other people say it to them...IT'S A FRIGGIN CYCLE! This is completely unnecessary because if we could just stand together as women and stop calling each other out of our names, we could be SO much stronger. We need to stop seeing ourselves as fat bitches or skinny hoes, and see each other as sisters!

The Cockiest Female Alive

At the moment I'm sitting in my friend's room with my ex's brother playing video games and talking shit. I was having a conversation with Carolyn last night about how both of us would rather be around men than women. It has been my entire life that all my closest friends were males. I don't have female friends because I don't like bullshit and drama. I like to spend time with people I enjoy being around; I don't like being around more drama than I absolutely have to be. I used to think this was the only reason that I enjoy being around my male friends so much...that's not the case.

I enjoy spending so much time with them because I enjoy fighting. I enjoy a little friendly confrontation. This is the same reason why I enjoy LAN parties and playing Halo...I'm competitive as all hell (and a little geeky). Most of my male friends have told me that I have officially earned the title of "The Cockiest Female Alive". I am a bonafide shit talker when it comes to gaming. I will kick ass playing Halo 3 and talk shit for hours. I treat it like it's my job. I enjoy it so!

Trust In Me...

I think I am probably the most stubborn person who ever lived, excluding my grandmother (God rest her soul). It is like no matter how close someone is to me and what they have done for me, I never trust them enough to completely open up or give myself to them. I try to force myself to trust people, but it never works. It's like, I open up but only partially in order to protect my heart. Somehow in my mind, a person cannot let everyone in. If they do this, eventually it no longer becomes precious to have a place someone's heart.

It is incredibly difficult for me to trust, since like most adults, I've been hurt in some way. It is getting more and more difficult for me to let people in so they can really get to know me. I'm working on it, of course but it's definitely my worst problem. It's like I love my friends, but there are only a few of them who truly know me for who I am. This bothers me immensely.

When we are children, we just know that our parents would not let us fall. When I was a little girl, I used to jump from the very top of our stairs when my dad would come home. I absolutely knew he would never drop me. I would love to have that type of trust in another person at this age. I honestly think that this would make my existence a bit easier.

I love being the independent and ambitious woman I am, but in that same breath I long to have someone understand me completely and be there through thick and thin. My biggest fear, like most adults, is being alone. I absolutely cannot stand to go through something hard like I am right now and feel alone. It is so difficult to trust someone in this day and age...even if you have known them for years. I guess it's just something I need to deal with and work through.

Fate vs. Coincidence

My best and I have spent the past couple of nights talking. It seems as if things are falling into place almost perfectly. Our bond, our pasts, our lives...everything has been intertwined. It's almost scary. I have never been one to put much stock in reincarnation, but that is the only way to properly understand it.

Have you ever had someone in your life that you just KNOW has been a part of your past even though you've never met before? He is that to me. The only way I can describe it is like this: he was a part of me before I was properly formed; he is the strongest part of me, my warrior. He has become my stability and my strength. On the other hand, I am his safe haven; I make him whole. I make him realize his full potential. I have become his solitude and place of rest whenever he needs it. I also give him his inspiration to continue fighting

I don't know what has been going on for the past couple of weeks, but he picked up on it as much as I did. Something is about to happen; things are changing and I'm excited. We are getting things together and preparing. The image on the left is an Egyptian goddess named Sekhmet who's ceremonies fall on my birthday every year, look it up. Her husband's name is Ptah. It is amazing the things you find out after a little research. Balance is key. Finding your soul's balance is the deepest happiness a person can feel.

Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies.----Aristotle

If you still don't get what I'm saying, do yourself a favor and listen to India.Arie's song "The Truth". The entire gist of what I'm saying is in this song. Enjoy.

Love in the Time of Broken Feet

Well, my best left last night because he has a battle in Detroit tonight that I'm pissed because I have to miss it. Oh well, I'll see him and the boys perform in a couple of weeks. It's amazing how deep of a connection one can make without even attempting. By just letting it grow into whatever it will be later. *sigh* Anyway, I have made a decision to move back to Kalamazoo and finish up my undergrad at Western. I was shocked when that was my first thought, it's mostly because I want to be around my family.

I'm getting my stuff into Western pretty soon. I just finished the online re-app and they need a copy of my transcript from here. They already have my transcript from KVCC. So this is one of those yeah...we'll see situations. I definitely got my internship (helloooo $20/hr)! So, I will be at home to handle the rest of everything and that makes me incredibly happy. I miss my family and everyone else INCREDIBLY! My parents were extremely happy that I'll be home. My dad was like, well...just figure out how to deal with your mom because you know how you all get after a few months: at each others' throats. I don't think that will happen this time, because she understands that I'm too damn old for her to pull that shit anymore. It is difficult for her to accept, but she'll get it it eventually.

My foot is still torn up, but it's not NEARLY as painful as it was last week. It still looks rough, like you can see the bone, but it's not as bruised thank God. I'll post pics so you guys can see how gross that stuff was. It was NAAAASTY. Anyway, I'm off to finish my homework for the week. woohoo.

Who Needs Religion?

I am not exactly a religious person, although it is true I was raised in a mixture of Catholic and Baptist teachings and went to a Catholic school. As I have become an adult, I have discovered my own slant on spirituality and the self. Most people do this as they become older. I do believe in God and I do believed that He has a plan already in progress for us all. I also believe that certain things, events, and people are in your life for a purpose and they play a scheme in the Master Plan.

My best friend drove up spur of the moment because I think he could feel that I needed him (he is 3 hours away back home, in Kalamazoo). We've always had this odd bond that we know when the other is hurting emotionally and we know when there is an emergency with the other person. It's like we have the strongest walkie-talkie set ever, in our brains. Anyway, he has always been a spiritual person but didn't really believe in a Divine Entity. That has changed. He has discovered who he is spiritually as well as who I am spiritually. The best way to explain it is that we are 2 sides to the same coin. We know each other better than anyone else on the planet and it shows.

I won't lie to you, I am not a big fan of change. Everyone who knows me is quite aware of that fact. I am a control freak, just like my Dad. Anyway, I realized that my fear of change and desire to control everything around me is a lack of belief in myself. It is as if I know I can't do something so in order for it to get done, I have to have a certain environment. This is from me doubting that I can do this task set before me.

I have been doing some deep exploration as to what my purpose here is, I think I may have figured it out. I am here to envision tasks that have been set before us. I am good with mental pictures and I am incredibly sensitive to spiritual activity. During meditation, I get a lot of mental pictures that normally tie together to form something. I'm not sure if it's little slips of His plan that The Creator is showing glimpses of or what. I know it sounds nuts, but I am just trying to piece it together and figure it all out.

Barack Obama and a Hungry Kitty

Well by now, it's pretty obvious that I am a Barack Obama stan. Quite frankly, he's a phenomenal candidate and the sheer fact that he was willing to go on Saturday Night Live is just more reason for me to support him. Funny sketch below. Enjoy!



Also, this is a video that reminds me of my cats. The two of them growl and bite you if you touch their food. Enjoy this one too!

A Dream Deferred

What happens to a dream deferred?

Does it dry up
like a raisin in the sun?
Or fester like a sore--
And then run?
Does it stink like rotten meat?
Or crust and sugar over--
like a syrupy sweet?

Maybe it just sags
like a heavy load.

Or does it explode?

-Langston Hughes

---

Everyone has a few goals or dreams that they would like to accomplish. There are many reasons why we try to justify putting these things off. Sometimes we're too busy, sometimes we get married and begin families, other times we just forget or ignore these dreams. I am very guilty of putting off my dreams and goals because I'm too busy or that I forgot my dreams. Most of the time, I tell myself that I'll do it later or do it tomorrow. I'm sure many of you have done the same. Let's be honest, that tomorrow or later never happens. Things still come up or hinder our plans.

Most of us need to realize that the tomorrow that we keep putting things off for, never happens. We continue to put off our goals and dreams, and they eventually disappear. My mother told me a long time ago that when she was in college, she wanted to be an interior designer. I asked what happened to that dream. She told me that the opportunity at State Farm was brought to her attention and she took them up on it. She forgot her dream eventually and has worked at State Farm for 26 years. She still has the urge to design, but she doesn't have the time or the energy for it anymore. That is what depressed me the most as we talked about this.

We need to remind ourselves that we keep putting off for tomorrow, what we could do today; we need to keep our dreams in the front of our minds in order to utilize them as a driving force in all we do. If we continue to do so, the dream will die.

Daylight Savings Time and The Semester

This is my favorite time of year! I get to sleep for an extra hour and I love it. It does mess up my internal clock though. This morning I got up and started looking for a job, as I do every morning and realized that it was 8 AM...I didn't need to be up for another 2.5 hours. I laid back down and couldn't fall back asleep. I was disappointed.

I'm confused as to why they change the date for Daylight Savings. Last weekend, I changed my clock and then realized that I was COMPLETELY wrong. I was confused for the rest of the day. Then my friend asked me to tell her what time it was and I looked at my phone and realized that I changed the clock on the wrong day. *sigh* There is no hope for me.

I'm in the middle of trying to figure out what I'm going to do. I desperately need to pay my rent and bills, so you all will see a rise in the amount of sponsored posts I do (I'M SORRY!). I don't like to do them, but I definitely need the cash and I will only do posts that relate to what's going on in my life.

Things are getting hectic since there are only 5 more weeks until the semester is over (YAY!) and I can relax and work on getting my money up. The only thing is that I need to pay off all these bills and other things before the semester is over. I really want to go home for Thankgiving, but since my car is acting up; I probably won't be able to. You all could help by donating to my PayPal account by using that link on the right *uses puppy dog eyes*. If not, then you all can send Ramen and other non-perishable food items (if you feel so inclined, email me at wrybeauty@gmail dot com for the mailing address). We're starvin' over here! Well, I'm going to go finish the job search.

Oh no...My Credit!

Well, you all know that I'm a college student which normally equates to bad credit, of course. I'm working really hard to get my bills paid and get my credit back to where it used to be. It's kind of a vicious cycle: I need a loan to pay off my bills; I can't get a loan because my bills aren't paid. I'm sure most of you can relate. Anyway, one of the best things you can do is to keep tabs on your credit report. After that, you can look for loans that are specifically designed for people with bad credit.

After doing some searching and light detective work on the internet, I came across a great resource for bad credit loans. Badcreditoffers.com is a great website, since so many people in the US have bad credit, it helps to rescue us from debt. One of the other great services that this website provides is that you can check your credit report and see exactly what the lenders see! Keeping yourself updated on your credit report is what EVERYONE should be doing, it can save you quite a bit of headache later on.

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Oh My, Mr. Obama!

Ok, Barack Obama is officially my favorite person in the world...EVER. Please take a look at this video of him dancing on Ellen. This video made my day SO much brighter. Ladies and gentlemen, may I present our next president(fingers crossed) dancing to Crazy in Love:

He's Missing!!!!

This pic is of 18 year old Augustine Floyd. He went missing last week in Mount Pleasant (on campus at my university). He is a member of the Saginaw Chippewa Tribe up here and was last seen at an after party a little while after the T-Pain concert last week. His family says they have not seen him since he left to meet a blonde girl he met from Myspace. The girl supposedly met him at the concert and they all went to the after party.

The Saginaw Chippewa Tribe released this statement. Please help if you know anything at all!!!!

Description:

18-year-old, Native American 5’10” tall, 183 lbs

Drives a 1995 Cadillac DeVille with a trunk tied with a bungee cord license plate AAN 4697

Left his Sutton Bay Home to meet a girl by the name of Kenda or Kendra whom he met on myspace and with whom he attended the T-Pain concert. He was last seen at a party after the concert.

The Saginaw Chippewa Tribal Police is asking the community to assist with any information regarding the whereabouts of Grand Traverse Band member Augustine (Augie) Floyd. Please contact the Tribal Police at their Tip Line number (989) 775-4775 or their dispatch number at (989) 775-4700.

Dog Gone!

I'm sure by now that everyone has heard about Dog the Bounty Hunter's little rant about his son's girlfriend who happens to be a black woman. If not: here's the link so you can hear for yourselves. Anyway, apparently Tucker,the son whose girlfriend he was talking about in the tape, was the one who sold the tape to the Enquirer for $15,000. I find this absolutely hilarious. Also hilarious is the fact that A & E has offically announced the cancellation of his show:

“In evaluating the circumstances of the last few days, A&E has decided to take Dog The Bounty Hunter' off the network’s schedule for the foreseeable future. We hope that Mr. Chapman continues the healing process that he has begun.”

To be honest, I have never been a fan of his show because it always seemed so fake. For example, there was a young man that they were tracking down to take to court, which is obvious because that is the job of a bounty hunter. Anyway, the man gave himself up and Dog and his wife decided to go off on this tangent about how the young man needs to follow God and read his Bible and follow the teachings of the church. Ok, I'm all for witnessing but...ummm...you were just saying how "We need to get this *beeeep* and get him off of the streets and blah blah blah." I don't know about you, but IMO it defeats the purpose of witnessing if you're going to call someone out of their name and then mention the Lord in the same sentence.

Oh, it would be unfair not to let Mr. Bounty Hunter put his spin on what happened, so this is part of the statement he released, so you all tell me if this is sincere after having listened to the tape *smh*:

"My sincerest, heartfelt apologies go out to every person I have offended for my regrettable use of very inappropriate language. I am deeply disappointed in myself for speaking out of anger to my son and using such a hateful term in a private phone conversation. It was completely taken out of context. I was disappointed in his choice of a friend, not due to her race, but her character. However, I should have never used that term. I have the utmost respect and aloha for black people – who have already suffered so much due to racial discrimination and acts of hatred. I did not mean to add yet another slap in the face to an entire race of people who have brought so many gifts to this world. I am ashamed of myself and I pledge to do whatever I can to repair this damage I have caused."

Anyway, in other news: I RE-FRACTURED MY FOOT. This has been the crappiest week ever for my body. Not only do I have the flu, but my foot re-fractured itself. I swear I haven't done anything but walk and all of a sudden I could feel grinding and could barely walk. Now I can't move my foot at all and it's HUGE. And on top of all of this: my doctor is out of town until like Tuesday or Wednesday so I'm SOL for the weekend AND I'm out of painkillers. Someone come put me out of my misery and send me to the glue factory...my racing days are over.

***photo courtesy of A&E.com***

Sick on Halloween

Well, I'm sure you all have heard about the "super flu" that is going around.  Guess who is lucky enough to see it first hand: ME.  It's just my luck to catch the SUPER FLU (not the normal flu, or the really bad flu, the effing SUPER flu).  So, this year's Halloween sucked.  Of all the days to catch the flu, I CAUGHT IT ON HALLOWEEN!  I was upset because it's my favorite holiday.  So, while my friends and everyone else was out partying; I was up trying to keep myself hydrated and taking random pills to stop my throat from hurting.  It even hurts to breathe.  I've missed 2 days of classes so I don't even know what I'm going to do.  Has anyone else noticed that when you're sick, your pets want to be all over you?  The cats have been sleeping on my chest for the past 3 nights, it's irking me.  Oh well.  HAPPY LATE HALLOWEEN!