Back to Black

After all that's happened within the past month or so, it's time that I get my health back on track again. My mental and physical health needs to be my focus right now, more than anything. Since this is my last semester of undergrad, I DEFINITELY need to get myself in order and taken care of before grad starts and things get REALLY stressful.

My mom and I had a bit of a difficult/complicated conversation about my health. It was time that we both be realistic about my health and what the possible outcomes for my life may be. She put it quite frankly, "It doesn't make sense for you to work your ass off for that GPA and you might not live long enough to put that doctorate to use!" That really put things in perspective for me, especially since it was coming from my mom and she is the most optimistic woman you could ever hope to meet.

At this point, I need to get my health and attitude back to the way it was a while ago. I was healthy, happy, and had enough confidence for 3 of me. I really miss that about myself and miss being that woman. So I will be working my ass off this semester as usual, but with more of a focus on my health and wellness than I have ever put there before. I finally have the life that I wanted for so long, simply being happy where I am and not looking for more. That other piece will either find me or make itself clearly known.

Starting over has never felt so good...